Abbey: That's right.. I'm back. I just had to take care of somethings.
Blogger: And that took two years??
Abbey: Shutty.
With cold feet (literally) I sit at my computer, thinking about starting up the ol' blog again. I need to document my life or I will regret it. I completely failed at writing in my journal. I recently opened up my journal and my last post was from 2 years ago. Ooops. I would love to someday make my blog into a book and put it on the shelf with all my photo albums and baby books. A little something for my kids and grandkids to remember me by. Tender, I know!
With that being said, let's begin.
My life, as of today:
23 years old.
Just graduated from Cosmetology school.
Madly in love with Tyler Teran.
And never been happier.
Background:
7 months ago I was engaged to my boyfriend of 2 years. One day, after arguing with him over wedding plans, I simply told him that I was done with this conversation and we needed to end it. I simply said the words, "I'm done" and I felt this sense of relief. It hit me right then, our relationship was way too difficult. We were just not meant to be together. There is someone better for him, and someone better for me. I needed to end it.
That was the hardest thing I have ever done. My life had become his life. We did everything together. I didn't know what I would do without him, but I couldn't ignore that feeling. I needed to move on with my life, without him.
The next 3 months were almost unbearable. I was completely and utterly lost. I didn't know who I was and I didn't know where to start. If it wasn't for my family, friends, and the Gospel, I don't know where I would be today.
In December I started to have this nagging feeling to contact my high school friends. I hadn't spoke to them in about 2 years and I couldn't figure out why I felt so strongly. Following my gut I added one of my friends on Facebook. Within a week we were all hanging out again and I started to feel like my old self once again.
New Years Eve rolled around and my friends were having a party. I planned on going to the party with my best friend Meagan. Unfortunatly, Meagan was really sick and I had to go to the party by myself. I was thinking it would just be our close friends. Yeah it was, and their entire Singles Ward. To be completely honest, I wasn't feeling it. I realized that I was in fact single and I would have to face it one day and start dating. Dating was the last thing on my mind. What I didn't know is that the man I call my boyfriend (cough.. cough.. soon to be fiance) was sitting in that room.
After the party was over and I went home and bawled my eyes out, I found out that there was a reason I was supposed to go to that party. My friend sent me a text, telling me that there were a few guys that were interested in getting to know me. A huge burden was lifted off my shoulder. I'm not invisible, this might actually be easier then I thought.
A few days later, I found out that Tyler was one of the interested individuals. And better yet, he was the guy I was eyeing all night. One night we were hanging out and out of no where it hit me, I think that I was supposed to go out with a guy named Tyler Teran. About two months earlier my friend Emily was telling me about this guy she wanted to set me up with. I was super hesitant and not willing to commit. She told me to look him up on Facebook and see if I was interested. I typed in the name Tyler Teran and checked out his Facebook. I remember thinking, "He is so cute, there is no way he would be into me." Emily had graduated from school that week and I never had a chance to tell her whether or not I was interested. But I still met him and I truly believe that it was no coincidence. I'm not one that believes in soul mates. But I do believe that if you are in the right place, at the right time, you will find someone that is absolutely perfect for you. Enter Tyler.
Tyler and I started officially dating one month later. I have never been this happy. It is the easiest thing I have ever done. We are madly in love and our relationship just keeps getting better and better. We knew after 4 days that we were in love and that we we're supposed to be together. I understand if you think that we're nuts. If someone had said that to me, before I met Tyler, I would have thought they were insane and told them to get a life. But I can honestly say that I've never felt so right about anything in my entire life. We're meant to be together!
It puts everything into perspective for me. The reason I went through everything I went through is because I'm supposed to be right here, right now.
Please stay tuned. We're just getting started..
